For everyone, and I mean literally, everyone, to deny something that you actually lived through and witnessed is the most unnerving, disconcerting and indeed, frightening, experience that you can imagine. This has happened to me ever since I started to defend the catechism I received as a child, the doctrine of EENS. If it weren’t for the fact that I had previously read ‘Whilst the Eyes of the Great are Elsewhere’ by William Biersach, Link, I would seriously have started to doubt my own sanity. Biersach’s experiences as child and adolescent were very similar to mine and he describes with accuracy the feelings of bewilderment and confusion experienced by Catholics caused by the changes resulting from Vatican II.
As it was, I felt that I had somehow wandered into a parallel universe where lies were now the truth and the truth had become a lie. Which I suppose is an accurate depiction of the world after God permitted the sons of Satan to take over the running of the Church. I personally believe that He permitted this to punish the faithlessness of our forefathers in allowing the Catholic Faith to be undermined, consciously or otherwise, by Liberalism and Puritanism, both of which are offshoots of the Protestant heresy; the folly of which is being brought home to us now by the current destruction of our families, societies, nations and civilisation.
I had been attending the Latin Mass at a FSSPX monastery for four years when I was scandalized to find out that Dom Lebvre, the FSSPX and all the other so-called traditional sects believed in and taught the heresies of salvation by blood, desire and invincible ignorance. I had only recently learnt, as a result of reading Biersach’s book, that the Vatican II Church had adopted these heresies.
I immediately wrote to one of the priests at the monastery, asking him if they also believed in and taught these heresies. He confirmed this and replied, in the patronising tones of a doctor trying to comfort a recalcitrant mental patient, that there was absolutely no reason for me to be upset because Baptism of Desire had ALWAYS been the teaching of the Church. To support this, he cited those unfortunate speculations of St. Thomas Aquinas about the fate of catechumens who died before they could be baptised and the Catechism of the Council of Trent, which actually talks about justification and not salvation.
You could have knocked me down with a feather when this priest, who must have been born at least 15 to 20 years after Vatican II had the effrontery to tell me, someone who had been catechised well before the event, what Catholics were catechised to believe in and believed in before Vatican II.
You see, I still REMEMBER the catechism class in which the doctrine of EENS was explained to us for the first time. We must have been preparing for the sacrament of Confirmation. I remember the teacher and his name, Mr. Blacklock (RIP) . The reason I remember this particular class so clearly was because of the expression of surprise, wonder and gratification on each pupil’s face in a class of forty, seven or eight year olds, as the implications of the doctrine gradually dawned on us. We all looked round the classroom at each other as if to say ‘Why should we be so lucky!’
Yes, what had WE done to deserve the totally unmerited gift of salvation and redemption obtained for us by the humble and willing sacrifice of Our Lord, Jesus Christ, God Incarnate ? What had We done to deserve the gift of Faith bequeathed to us by our ancestors who had been hounded out of their lands, massacred, starved to death and sold into slavery by Protestants who, the Church now teaches, can be saved by ‘ the desire to do God’s will’. Our ancestors, who had been denied access to priests, the Mass and the sacraments for almost 400 years by the Protestants but had miraculously maintained the Faith to leave to us as a precious inheritance.
A Faith, which we supinely allowed ourselves to be defrauded of, bastardised and prostituted out by the diabolical theologians and clergy at Vatican II. The gift of Faith, which we and the clergy have stamped on, spat on and kicked out of the way like spoilt children on receiving a present whose value we don’t understand
And if anyone reading this is malicious enough to suggest that my memories are the ravings of a senile mind and that no one can remember a particular catechism class that took place almost sixty years ago, I also remember one of my Communion classes in which the teacher, Miss Veal (RIP), explained in tones of such awe and reverence, that I still get shivers up my spine when I recall it, that the host was the Real Body and Blood of Our Lord God, Jesus Christ and that is why one crumb was not allowed to fall to the ground to be trampled on. Then the Church introduced communion in the hand.
I also remember the pride I felt when our teachers explained that, because of the services in Latin, Catholicism was the only religion where you could go to Mass literally anywhere in the world and still participate. Then the Church introduced Mass in the vernacular.
I personally believe that since Vatican II, God has given us the Popes we deserve as punishment for our teachery and faithlessness, and it is only when we acknowledge and repent of our folly, humbly accept that we deserve our punishment, and once more profess
the one, true Catholic Faith that our Church will be restored to us.